Important Dates and Heavy Weights

Of course, every day has its Ying and Yang.

It's good and not so.

I try to focus on the good. 

When I awoke this is what I saw. 

What a gift. 

It is not all my land, but I stand before and declare:

The Queen has decreed it shall be a very good day in the little kingdom. 

Yesterday's not so good. 

My sister shared a photo of my parents. 

It was their 65th wedding anniversary.

Many of you know my father and I are keeping our distances.

My mom is quite ill with alzehimers.

It was the saddest photo I could imagine.

They sat in a dark corner of the nursing home together. 

Her in that chair they put her in.

Him with his back to the photo. 

I imagine he is crying but he is eating at the same time.

My mother is staring, blankly ahead. 

There is a banner that says Happy Anniversary .

it. Tore. me. Up.

I know from Susan, my smart and sweet therapist of years ago that important dates carry heavy weights. 

(oh I just made that up)

My nephews wife, Heather, sends my mom a Christmas card. 

She asks me  how she is doing. 

She is the good of yesterday. 

I texted her sadly. 

She reminded me of the good of being a child of my mother and always a child of God.

I need some yarn .

I need it bad.